: notes to self :

bounteeeeful

so much to write abooot! (do canadians really say 'aBOOT'? i can't hear it...) i had my JET interview... some toughies... but i'm actually excited about the prospects of going. what happened to the indifference? well, i found out that there is a good chance that i get placed in an elementary school!!!!! yeeeeeeahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! no judgemental, punky, stuck up high-schoolers!!! so yes, good things!

i returned the jeans, and left with a 6-reg. MAJOR incentive to keep working out... major...

i took remy out for a walk today, and we went to armadale park, and we (i) had such a good time.. no attacks! clean, white, untouched field. there's a bridge there, so we sat down on it (well, i sat, she pulled). and it was so nice... it was like +4/+5 out. beeyooootiful!! then at night, isobela and i went to.. the opening of kotama's show!! it was awesome... he looks really good, and his art was pretty impressive! i had this totally different interpretation than he or isobela... felt kind of eh... but is all good. guess who was there? sarah polley! i made googly eyes, but then felt stupid after b/c they were like, 'ugh, what-EVER...' sigh. but i really liked his work. =) yayayayay!! v.happy tonight! karaoke on friday night? i haven't been in so long..

seiji just asked me what to do for his 1 month.. i came up with this awesome idee... take a wide strip of poster board and fold it into accordian styles, but substantial squares for the folds. take pictures of all of the places you've spent time together, and paste them onto the folds (seiji could pose in front of them, like at timmy's he'd be holding 2 cups of coffee, offering unseen leila one). then write a comment or what not underneath. on the final flap, write a message. tie the entire package with a ribbon. poster boad or something stiff is needed so that it can stand up on a desk and be viewed. i was thinking that the back, which would be picture-less could have a border in the same ribbon (or contrasting?). but yeah... creative juices are a flowin!! =)

isobela let me borrow a case for christ... yipppeeeeeeee!!! read on sista, read on.

starting and ending

good news: i have finally found a lovely pair of jeans!!! from AE!!! for only $51 incl. tax!!! but i have to exchange them for another pair b/c i got the size 8-long... like duh. i got them at fairview and that was the only pair of 8s they had... so off to stc or eaton centre to do an echanger. #4 DONE

i'm going to finish my session review and get ready for JET tonight, so #s 1 and 8 will be done as well, including some of #10 b/c i'm reading a bit tonight. woohoooooo...

seiji commented that i was v.critical, and that no one would want to marry me as a result of this characteristic. rather than be offended, i realized this morning that i am becoming v. hyper-critical of things, esp. of him b/c i have this notion that when you're with someone, there should be more of an effort to be a better person (something you should be doing 24/7 anyway), and i'm kind of disappointed in the way he is carrying himself. hmm. i also had a mini-epiphany... you know what, maybe i WON'T get married. and after i had thunk that thought, i felt relieved in some way.. like freer. no stress about the future. it's funny how melissa and michelle both have bfs. well maybe not funny-haha but funny-hmmm-interesting ya? so what did i learn? stop being so hyper critical of everything/body b/c even though i may not necessarily be harsh to people, it is still being judgemental.

i have planned out my week, and it looks pretty good... haven't really thought about going out though... maybe a movie later on? i am the queen of homebodies... i rule ALL... oh good news to boot, i might become a computer tutor for st.christopher's house soon.. yay! the literacy thing was for a year commitment.. so couldn't.

speaking of employment, i pondering over possible summer employment. Note: daydreams guarantee employment upon application
i could work at swiss chalet:
pros
soo close to home, waitressing so it's out of my comfort zone, chicken!!!, run by asian people, lots of older people come in b/c of homestyle cooking/family restaurant, TIPS!
cons
lots of teenagers go there, might smell like chicken upon departure (a la buffy and burger palace scent), voice might not carry well, position ripe for clumsy/awkward moments (potential subpeona for coffee burns????)

i could work at chapters/indigo:
pros
get to be surrounded by books, take home books to read, discount, fairly close to home (kennedy commons)
cons
smock uniform?, sporadic bus schedule, bored in a big space, co-worker chit chat

i could work at the GAP
pros
DISCOUNT, clothing retail experience, help people out
cons
quota?, working w/smarmy teens/lifers, bored in a big space

dilemma of august proportions.

beetle me

i'm at work typing this blog... i'm not sure exactly what kind of changes nurjehan expects... but they're going to be minimal. yahoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.. my reading week has started!!!!!!! freeee as a biiird... list? ok!!

1. get ready for JET interview
2. work out rest of semester for MoE
3. RETURN LIBRARY BOOKS
4. buy jeans
5. hang out w/mary
6. stop watching carson daly
7. start research papers (EAS, PSY, ENG)
8. finish 456 session review
9. finish at least half of scarf
10. study for Genji test

i just can't belieeeeeeeeve it... one whole week where i don't have to get up early!!!!!!!!!! aahhh...

i realized that i'm a super shallow person... i mean i haven't even called scott mission back to set up a volunteering time yet. argh. and i don't really involve myself w/any sort of political aspirations... what's my charity of choice?????? boooooooooooooooooooooo... yet i will spend a couple of hours surfing abercrombie.com to figure out which t-shirts i want. ho mama. clicking the hunger site doesn't count either. maybe i'll volunteer w/a literacy group...? booooooooo v.depressed now.

direct correlation

phew: often used as an expression of relief. i definitely feel relieved that i'm at least motivated to try and be a better Christian. after a couple of completely yuck weeks, i understood that my spiritual well-being directly affected both emotional and physical well-being. i'm trying to commit an hour a day to God, reading the Bible, listening only to worship music during that time... hopefully i can start a case for Christ during reading week or something (gotta finish the tempest though.. eeek!). and pastor ray said something comforting last week: 'don't be afraid to fail'. thank goodness for that reprieve, b/c i have definitely failed in sticking to the plan man! but yeah, i've been blessed with a couple of good verses/messages these past two weeks. run-down? ok!

in the middle of the week, i read a verse that had something like, love your fellow man and don't hate him. duh i know, but i hadn't had it so bluntly put recently, and i needed to hear that what with all of my anti-social behaviour and bitterness concerning friendships. admittedly, i did whine/complain about the mel situation to kathy last night, but you know what? Praise God, b/c i checked my email today and got an email from mel. i think things will be a-okay, and i am SOOOOO happy.

at church, jason came with jaime, and her dad came too! how cool is that. jason is super cool, and what is even COOLER was that pastor ray was talking about loving God first and foremost and as a direct result, your relationships will become the best. what an awesome message to hear, and i am especially glad jaime got to hear it, if anything to strengthen her relationship with jason. *i think this one's a keeper* =)

i like people again.

PPF was very cool. i am so impressed with people's talents. Afterwards i desperately wanted to believe that my thin reedy breathy voice was comparable... hahahohohohoho... sigh. Speaking of el comedienne, margaret cho is coming to t.o. and playing at con hall! hahaha... coolness =)

well, i smells popcorn a popping... munch on sista, munch ON

disruptions

it's so weird!!! my internal clock is on the fritz... i can hardly believe it. this morning i debated whether or not to get up and go to my (freakin) 9am class b/c when i regained consciousness after my alarm went off, it was already 7:09. Technically, i have to be out of the house by 7:20 to catch the markham transit bus. Thus, only leaving me 11 min to get ready, eat and feed remy. HAHAHAHAHAH. i could catch the bus, but i'd one smelly chick and my dog would starve. so i caught the later bus, and what is astounding is that not only is this bus filled with less people, i basically got to school around the same time. a little late mind you, but still. anyways, as soon as i got my own seat on the markham bus, i passed OUT, right around premier on esna park. i usually wake up while the bus is on yonge, or just when it's turning into the station. but today i had to be woken up by someone while the bus was unloading!!!!! what the haycke????? internal clock, wherefore art thou??? thou art my only claim to fame, and thou has deserted me!!!

otousan and seiji have major beef... moreso otousan with seiji. it's getting to the point where the former is creating a lot of drama and tension in the house, more so than usual. i think b/c seiji didn't get up from his nap last night after being told tons of times, otousan ripped up his rough draft of the ut phys ed application. i seriously think they should just let him do everything himself instead of babying him. IT'S SO GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh, so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he has no sense of responsibility because of this. i think he wants to volunteer at sick kids this summer b/c that's what leila's doing. so stupid, i mean no, i think volunteering is awesome, and people should be doing it all the time. BUT if he volunteers (and it'll be a full-time volunteer position), he won't work, which means he'll be sponging of the parents, and you can go out a lot more during the summer. ARGH if he were more responsible he'd work and volunteer, and i have told him this, but apparently NO. SO FRUSTRATING. i seriously think that when he turned 19/got the gf, he became more dense.

but not to be a hypocrite, i'm pretty irresponsible too. and lazy. ok FINE i'm standing in a glass house with a whole bucket of rocks.