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Thursday, November 06, 2003
anti-me
i have never been good at making decisions... in any sort of capacity. for example, put me in front of a menu that has more than two panels and i freeze... re: jack astor`s, joyfull, swiss chalet, burger king... u get the point. i think it`s my tendency to want everything all at once. greedy? or afraid of missing out? i was reading Mammon Inc and the narrator spoke about kia su, a Singaporean trait readily available in all of its citizens which basically made them supremo bargain hunters, because they would always refuse to settle for the easiest choice i.e. they never wanted to miss out on a better opportunity. sometimes in a state of frenzied kia su-ness that overtakes me during decision making time, i misinterpret and make the wrong decision. usually the result is fairly harmless: i end up with a chicken sandwich and five bowls of chalet sauce instead of a quarter chicken dinner... but nowadays, margin for error seems smaller, the reprecussions more heart-stopping than usual. how do i muddle through stuff, making and sticking with grown-up decisions while fending off frequent jolts of kia su? which wins, heart or head?
i have never been good at making decisions... in any sort of capacity. for example, put me in front of a menu that has more than two panels and i freeze... re: jack astor`s, joyfull, swiss chalet, burger king... u get the point. i think it`s my tendency to want everything all at once. greedy? or afraid of missing out? i was reading Mammon Inc and the narrator spoke about kia su, a Singaporean trait readily available in all of its citizens which basically made them supremo bargain hunters, because they would always refuse to settle for the easiest choice i.e. they never wanted to miss out on a better opportunity. sometimes in a state of frenzied kia su-ness that overtakes me during decision making time, i misinterpret and make the wrong decision. usually the result is fairly harmless: i end up with a chicken sandwich and five bowls of chalet sauce instead of a quarter chicken dinner... but nowadays, margin for error seems smaller, the reprecussions more heart-stopping than usual. how do i muddle through stuff, making and sticking with grown-up decisions while fending off frequent jolts of kia su? which wins, heart or head?
// posted by naomi @ 11:43 p.m. 
