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Wednesday, May 14, 2003
the creek
it's amazing what two hours of dawson's creek can do to a person, turn them into reflective-sentimental-gushiness. mind you it was the last episode ever, and i have been inundating myself with dc b/c of the massive reruns on tbs every morning. nevertheless, i still think i would have cried just as much if i had gone into the whole event cold. ah joey and pacey together, my life is COMPLETE! i totally did not see the jenn linley death coming at all... and everytime one of those weepy nostalgic lines were uttered, i was surprisingly moved. a lil bit. but now, typing this blog, i'm actually thinking about my friends in a very rose-coloured way. i haven't really done so in a long time, not even when liz came back from boston (i mean, capeside, what???). there are only two or maybe three people that i can see in terms of dawson & pacey proportions, and they're the ones i depend on when confusing things happen after a movie, or when i don't know what pants to buy. and i'm so happy. i love love love them. i know i could definitely be a better friend, and sometimes i feel really inadequate, and i guess humbled, but that's so awesome. it's funny how you realize that it only takes a few people to make you really happy, who make you want to be better, and this select few make you feel that you belong in this world. i'm really going to miss proximity i guess, but maybe the fact that i don't see people as much, is God's way of easing me into separation, which i guess i'm thankful for, one of those long-term things.
it's quite lovely if you think about it, the way friendship evolves. complete strangers to one another at one point in time, and by the GRACE of God, you're brought together. and something common is discovered, but it becomes something beyond common, something intangible that makes you sympatico with someone else. you get one another. how amazing! we are misunderstood by so many people, but in friendship you are safe from that. wow. when i think about all of the times i have received gifts of wisdom, it overwhelms me. i'd be waaaaaaaaay dumber without it, like, fer sure! i'm a much wiser person because of them, and hopefully, my actions are a testament to the integrity of the people around me. i love you guys.
To the Dear Ones:
I think I have always known this, but never to this extent. And this is not being written in some post-Dawson's-Creek-haze/stupor that has severely altered my critical capacities (thanks eng 339!). Rather, it is an overdue memo that I haven't sent you, one that I've been meaning to send you for a while. Maybe I will send it soon, in real time. But not yet. It's been a long time since we were unknown to each other, and maybe there were times along the way where it seemed like we were strangers. But I believe that we are inextricably tied together through God, and I am incredibly happy about it. There are certain things that I admire about you that I sometimes try to make my own, in my vain attempts to be just like you. But in the end, I always fail, because the copy is never as good as the original. And it is this original that I am blessed to have in my life, to always be that constant source of inspiration, comfort and joy, never to be duplicated. The most I could ever want for you will pale in comparison to what God has in store for you, so I hope that you accept the challenges that will lead to wondrous ends, and more people will know your true beauty.
Love you much.
on another love note, i went shopping with moms today.. I didn't get the suit, and have decided to forego suit shopping aspirations. too much time wasted on something i can get laterrrr. but we had some goooooooood sashimi/sushi today. i saw yano-san at work, but he was busy carrying buckets or something. i can really have a convo with mom now, and i'm THRILLED about it. God is so Good. I applied to Mitchell's, but they didn't ask me to fill out an application. is that weird? why are these weird resume handing-in situations happening, like at Jacob? huh??!!
i'm going to listen to phatfish now, and blast it in seiji's ear while he waits for a CALL.
oh yeah, i love my family and my loco doggy. it's a cuba gooding jr./halle berry night, minus the little gold man.
it's amazing what two hours of dawson's creek can do to a person, turn them into reflective-sentimental-gushiness. mind you it was the last episode ever, and i have been inundating myself with dc b/c of the massive reruns on tbs every morning. nevertheless, i still think i would have cried just as much if i had gone into the whole event cold. ah joey and pacey together, my life is COMPLETE! i totally did not see the jenn linley death coming at all... and everytime one of those weepy nostalgic lines were uttered, i was surprisingly moved. a lil bit. but now, typing this blog, i'm actually thinking about my friends in a very rose-coloured way. i haven't really done so in a long time, not even when liz came back from boston (i mean, capeside, what???). there are only two or maybe three people that i can see in terms of dawson & pacey proportions, and they're the ones i depend on when confusing things happen after a movie, or when i don't know what pants to buy. and i'm so happy. i love love love them. i know i could definitely be a better friend, and sometimes i feel really inadequate, and i guess humbled, but that's so awesome. it's funny how you realize that it only takes a few people to make you really happy, who make you want to be better, and this select few make you feel that you belong in this world. i'm really going to miss proximity i guess, but maybe the fact that i don't see people as much, is God's way of easing me into separation, which i guess i'm thankful for, one of those long-term things.
it's quite lovely if you think about it, the way friendship evolves. complete strangers to one another at one point in time, and by the GRACE of God, you're brought together. and something common is discovered, but it becomes something beyond common, something intangible that makes you sympatico with someone else. you get one another. how amazing! we are misunderstood by so many people, but in friendship you are safe from that. wow. when i think about all of the times i have received gifts of wisdom, it overwhelms me. i'd be waaaaaaaaay dumber without it, like, fer sure! i'm a much wiser person because of them, and hopefully, my actions are a testament to the integrity of the people around me. i love you guys.
To the Dear Ones:
I think I have always known this, but never to this extent. And this is not being written in some post-Dawson's-Creek-haze/stupor that has severely altered my critical capacities (thanks eng 339!). Rather, it is an overdue memo that I haven't sent you, one that I've been meaning to send you for a while. Maybe I will send it soon, in real time. But not yet. It's been a long time since we were unknown to each other, and maybe there were times along the way where it seemed like we were strangers. But I believe that we are inextricably tied together through God, and I am incredibly happy about it. There are certain things that I admire about you that I sometimes try to make my own, in my vain attempts to be just like you. But in the end, I always fail, because the copy is never as good as the original. And it is this original that I am blessed to have in my life, to always be that constant source of inspiration, comfort and joy, never to be duplicated. The most I could ever want for you will pale in comparison to what God has in store for you, so I hope that you accept the challenges that will lead to wondrous ends, and more people will know your true beauty.
Love you much.
on another love note, i went shopping with moms today.. I didn't get the suit, and have decided to forego suit shopping aspirations. too much time wasted on something i can get laterrrr. but we had some goooooooood sashimi/sushi today. i saw yano-san at work, but he was busy carrying buckets or something. i can really have a convo with mom now, and i'm THRILLED about it. God is so Good. I applied to Mitchell's, but they didn't ask me to fill out an application. is that weird? why are these weird resume handing-in situations happening, like at Jacob? huh??!!
i'm going to listen to phatfish now, and blast it in seiji's ear while he waits for a CALL.
oh yeah, i love my family and my loco doggy. it's a cuba gooding jr./halle berry night, minus the little gold man.
// posted by naomi @ 11:17 p.m. 
